For the past six years, I have been waiting for this opportunity.
And I just missed it.
I can’t believe myself. I can’t believe my lack of determination and how it was so easy for me to let it slip away. What a letdown. This is definitely not the determined and hardworking self that I know.
It’s like I’m in the top two of the competition and I just quit. It’s as my dream was being handed to me but I just wasn’t there to receive it.
Maybe I didn’t want it enough.
Still, I’d like to believe that there is a reason for this. Maybe the breakthrough is near. It better be because I need some sort of redemption.